Multiple Attractions

Life is all about LIVING and living is all about EXPERIENCING …..and as you experience life each new person you meet exposes you to a different side of yours, which previously you might not have been aware of…… and as you get aware of different segments of yourself, you become more clear of which side of yours needs what……in most of the cases this awareness happens sub-consciously……… there are times when you meet someone and you hate being with them… or at times you wish to be like someone whom you met a few days back……

One day you get to talk to person……..a small conversation gradually grows into hours of conversation on phone…. There is a strange sense of calmness and easiness, something you long for after a hectic schedule…….you talk your heart out and just be yourself………. There is no compulsion….no demands…..no minute by minute reporting………You have all the freedom to be yourself by mere presence of that person…… You think you are getting addicted …and someone might say ‘you are ATTRACTED to that person’ or may be ‘you are in LOVE’…..

Some other day, you meet someone…very strong…super intelligent and witty………spontaneous and difficult to anticipate……..demanding and egoist of highest order…….possessive and highly caring …….the more you try to know the more close you get ……and you realize there is another side of yours which had craved for this new energy….the presence of that person is so strong that your mind ceases to standstill….you run short of thoughts …..without thinking or talking you are exhausted …you met a strength which you always wanted to be ….you long for being with that person because you want to get that energy to succeed which you THINK you don’t have ….and the other day someone told you are ‘ATTRACTED’….

And again the other day….you see an unknown face………..you see it again and again …and the more you follow the face the more enigmatic that person seems to you ….you do not wish to interact but still want to know the unknown ….and there is a strange bond you feel for that unknown…your friend says ‘you are ATTRACTED’

Different people interacting with different side of yours….. these different sides of yours makes a complete YOU … and YOU are going through MULTIPLE ATTRACTIONS ……..

Today when there is so much MORALITY attached to an YOU, multiple attractions might raise someone’s brows…..someone might even term it as INFIDELITY……but for one who is aware about multiple segments of oneself and its multiple needs, values each one of them its attracted to…..for them MULTIPLE ATTRACTION is a straight sign of being HONEST to oneself and LOVING oneself…….

A deed of kindness or an act to harm…?

Like every day, that morning too I left my home at eight for the campus, which is just five minutes walking distance and in that five minutes I come across different experiences of different moods…the moment I leave my apartment I see a kid who had just learnt how to stand, watching me and expecting me to wave to her…with the sweetest voice and smile she responds with a bye … a smile so fresh as that morning, was enough to give may day a bright start. Thinking about her I am out of that lane and turn right, with a huge dump of garbage immediately at the turning. And I like a ‘responsible citizen’ move ahead covering my nose and cursing… no… no… not the municipality because I know the area where I live has excellent door to door garbage collection facility…still the people of that apartment owning a minimum of one car (costing somewhere around six to eight lakhs) could not find a better place than the entrance of their apartment compound to dispose off their garbage……..!! Struggling with my reasons for this irresponsible act of rich upper middle class ‘urban illiterate’ people, I reach the cross roads, with a temple at the opposite right corner. Unexpectedly there in the temple you see a considerable crowd of devotees who might be in their twenty’s and thirty’s. Look at so many youth that too so early in the morning in puja dress at a temple daily, I could not believe what the elder generation of today say, that today’s youth is loosing faith in god… … … may be only He knows which age group has more faith in Him…with this thought I pass a school, where kids are saying their morning prayers in their morning assembly… everyday when I see these kids standing in perfect line, height wise and as per their class with uniform matching their house colour for few moments I go back to my school days and how I used to hate those morning sessions…smiling on myself I move ahead…

When I was about to reach my college, that day I saw a new act happening…… An uncle was feeding street dogs with parle-g …lucky dogs… … …!!! That morning in hurry I could not even have breakfast… … … anyway… … … The man I guess was in his late forty’s but he was enjoying feeding those homeless ill-treated animals like a kid… it was quite a pleasant act to see… just few minutes back I was confronted to few highly irresponsible citizens and here I saw a deed of kindness from the citizen of same city… he might have atleast fed 10 parle-g medium sized packets… with a strange sense of contentment I crossed the road and entered my campus…

While going inside the campus a thought suddenly struck me about the man who was feeding street dogs with biscuits… he had brought all those biscuits in a plastic bag which he threw on the road once all the packets got over… he also threw all the wrappers of that medium sized ten to twelve biscuit packets on the road…and there was no need for me to think further as I and I guess everyone else today knows what ‘littering of plastic means’…

Only thing which confused me was how was I supposed to react…should I feel proud of that man for his deed of kindness or should feel disgusted to the irreplaceable damage he did in the process of kindness to the society and even the dogs he fed…?

And with a weird state o mind I entered my class where all the lights and fans were on with no one occupying it……….